Even when you’re starting to become solved, you still have to get scrambled along the way. In order to place each piece of the cube where it needs to be, you need to twist some of the pieces out of place and then restore them to complete the move. Going through the repentance process, or any mode of change, will often require us to do this. Even after we’ve made some changes and see our colors matching up, we’ll still need to twist ourselves into some uncomfortable circumstances to continue making progress.
We will need to exercise patience and understand that we can’t just match up one side, then do another and anther until we finish the sixth side. In terms of the actual Rubik’s cube, it’s physically impossible. You can try, but eventually you’ll need to mix up the colors for a second in order to place other colors where they need to be.
And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience; And patience, experience; and experience, hope: (Romans 5:3-4)
We learn through these twists how to be patient in our repentance process. This patience helps us gain experience for future times when we’ll need to solve our Rubik’s cube again and again, and in turn this experience brings us hope that solving the cube is possible.
It’s not always fun. Before I understood a correct method, I would try and solve each side, one after another. Often I would get to the point where I knew I had to mix up a side already solved if I wanted to progress on another side. This is where I’d get stuck. I didn’t want to unscramble a side already solved. I was afraid that I wouldn’t be able to solve it again, or that I would just screw up the whole cube in general.
The end result of repentance is always a relief. There is no greater feeling than knowing that your Heavenly Father has forgiven you of sin(s). During repentance, however, it may not always be pleasant. It’s not meant to be fun. The feelings of guilt and shame are an inevitable consequence of mistakes, and they are something that must simply be experienced, but…
…My son, despise not thou the chastening of the Lord, nor faint when thou art rebuked of him: For whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every son whom he receiveth. If ye endure chastening, God dealeth with you as with sons; for what son is he whom the father chasteneth not? (Hebrews 12:5-7)
Being chastened, or rebuked, by God is not something He does because he wants us to feel terrible, or because He wants to bully us. God rebukes when we mess up because He loves us. He wants us to do better and He knows that sometimes a little tough love is in order.
I know that through the love of God and the grace of Christ, we can change. It might put us out of our comfort zone every now and then, but that’s just a necessary part of the process. A few twists and turns here and there and before you know it, your Rubik’s cube is solved!